To others, life goes on as usual, but for me, there's some differences. Ok, I'm gonna selfishly push the blame to Juju, for "taking" most of my other sources of entertainment away. Ever since I've got the "Justine addiction", I no longer am watching any drama series, feel much lesser urge to watch movies and play games, no more variety shows on TV for me. That's because I enjoy watching Justine's tennis. It really has become part of my life at one point in time where I would rather watch her tennis than to go out or watching any TV dramas.
I remember the time in 2010 when Justine was playing in Stuttgart (If I didn't remember wrongly, it's scheduled at past midnight for my timezone), I tried to sleep but I would flip here and there in bed, thinking about how's Justine playing in the match. In the end, I would get up, switch on my com and anxiously watching Justine playing her matches. If Justine had lost, I would have of course been feeling very very down with my face as black as charcoal but luckily I've witnessed Justine's victory and happily went to bed but well, I got the adrenalin rush still inside me, so I was unable to sleep too. Ah~ the memories, all coming back to me now...
Ppl may think I'm crazy and stupid, maybe I was, just a little. I know it's not good to get obsessed in someone whom I didn't even know personally and who didn't even know my existence at all too. But it's my first time having a sports idol and it wasn't the same as "idolizing" the stars in entertainment industry. Before Justine, I do have 2 other idols, both in the entertainment industry, so I know how different it feels.
Watching Justine losing a match can make me lose my appetite (alright, I admit, a glutton me will still stomach down some food no matter what)..When Justine retired in 2011, upon learning that news and the touching goodbye message that she wrote to her fans made me cry for days (maybe a little exaggerated but well it's the same to me. Sorry, I'm just an emotional crying baby.)
The reason why I reacted that much was probably because it was too abrupt and hard for me to accept the truth since I've just started liking Justine in 2010 and expected to watch more of her tennis for many years. I've already grown emotionally attached to Justine. I admire her fighting spirit, her talent and even her cool nature on court where she would show no mercy to her opponents. I admire all that and even much more when I learnt some of her life story and knowing how kind hearted she actually is, outside of tennis. .I really wondered how some of her fans can last that long, liking her for years, some since 2003 or much earlier, and continued to support her when she made her comeback in 2010. To think they even had to endure the pain of her retiring twice in 2008 and 2011...I salute them!
I do not know how long I can keep liking Justine, no one will be affected for sure if I no longer liked her, but if that happens, all I can say is that I've no regrets for the pains and joys, tears and laughter that Justine had brought to me. Justine is the first person to make me see Tennis in a different light, as an interesting sport that can be played very artistically, tactically, and truly appreciate the sport. Thank you Justine!
It's funny somehow, after Justine retired, I felt I was "released" from the stress, the adrenalin and sleepless nights and slowly getting back to my "normal" life, lol! But like I'd said, I will nv regret it, in fact, I treasure those moments.
There's actually many more things I wanna say but I decided to call it a day...(it's past 2am now) oops!
Had no idea why I'm getting so emo tonight and suddenly wanted to talk about this topic..I hope my love for Justine will be forever, she's my inspiration and motivation to work harder and nv gives up without trying!
Good news for me: Watching/re-watching her past matches does rekindle some of the "lost love" if ever, for her, haha! Just simply knowing that she's living good and happy now is enough to make me smile in my sleep, good night world!
~My heart will go on~
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